I dont know what the hell it's wrong with me lately, I don't know what I want, I don't  understand what I feel, and I cant talk about it with anyone, cause it's embarrasing, I mean, I don't even know what to say. I don't know what it's goin trough my mind lately, I am afraid that I'm going to mess up, blow it, fuck it up, screw it...whatever, I just want this feeling to end, I'm sad, I don't know what to do anymore, I'm bored, I'm deseparate, and to me it all seems to go wrong, but actually it's not. I'm might have to wait, but I can't take it anymore...

HELP!